I have been holding guilt for five years. When jacob was in kindergarten he became ill while at school. The school could not get a hold of me, and they did not try the five other contact numbers on record- including a pager number. When I got to school at the end of the day the woman in the office was not at all kind to me and my poor boy was sick and we had to walk home. My heart was broken, I felt terrible. I have kept this feeling of being a "bad" mom for five years. I would be crazy if I forgot to bring my phone where ever I was, the feeling of what if haunted me. My friend was over and she did not have her phone and was so relaxed and she said let it go. And by golly she is right. I am not a bad mom, in fact I bet the young man would not remember the incident at all. (unless i chose to relate it to him and would the story be filled with my guilt?)